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March 31, 2006

Mobile Phone Wallpapers

These are the 4 customized wallpapers that i made for my new mobile phone. Apparently my new mobile phone is a Sony Ericsson K750i. Fear not, you wont get another lousy blog phone review. I absolutely abhor that. I'am actually more interested in the wallpapers i made, then the new phone i have. We are not usually interested in the things that comes as expected. And unfortunately, i have an abnormally high standard of expectations for the things i have in life.

The first image is japanese caligraphy. By its text formating, it suggests that this is in ancient times, perhaps in the 16th to 17th century. It is shown as a full page in Volume 5 of Lone Wolf and Cub. This has also been my desktop wallpaper for almost 6 months now. I really love this image.

The text translates to:
True joy is to take pleasure in ones own accomplishments;
Courtesy is to learn from the models of the past.
Do not the ancients say,
in death the wolf turns his head towards the hills ?
This is virtue.

The birds fly, returning to their homeland;
and without fail, the dying wolf turns his head towards the hills.

The second image is of a glorified Motoko Kusanagi, from Ghost in the Shell, in some form of ascension. I have this as my screen saver.

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Here the first image is of a gothic angel, i am unsure of the source. I love the imposition of the etched circular facade and the wings. A fine piece of art. The second image is that of Motoko Kusanagi again, from the front covers of volume 1, Ghost in the Shell manga.

March 27, 2006

Mediocrity

Every journey begins with amusement as we shed off the chains that bind us to our daily grind and embark on a new voyage to something that we believe gives us more meaning in life. We put ourselves in the hands of uncertainty; gambling our security for the the prospect of greater gains. The instincts - survival and self perserverence - dominates our psyche. It gives us an adrenaline high and it compels us to do more and to do them well, for why not ? our very livelihood is at stake. Our lives are suddenly and overhwhelmingly filled with purpose. A brilliant life of sparks. But as we get things settled, and normalancy returns, we begin to see monotony. We begin to observe mediocrity - the numbing permeating hum of all that is ordinary and unassuming. Our overwhelming purpose becomes replaced with but only one purpose - that is to excel in work and to float ourselves among our peers, to archieve distinction, for we do not want to fall into the state of mediocrity that we believe dictates the lives of our peers. Indeed, we yearn to be special, we yearn to be unique, to have an identity of sorts and to gain recognition above others for what we do. And thus comes the mindset where our lives begin to slowly slip into depression, we no longer remain human, but instead are turned into machines. Slaves, of our own ideas and thoughts.

Yet ironically and irrevocably, we remain the same petty humans that we are - as much as we yearn for perfection. And in this subtle process, we but turn ourselves into the mediocrity we so despise. For do not all rationally thinking human seek the same ideal ? Develop the same thoughts ?

Thus, mediocrity shows its true self, like a statue that slays from behind in the dark shadows at night, it too strikes men with utmost uncertainty. Mediocrity reveals its true form when we realize that we, like the petty fools that we are, have but been doing seeking the same false ideals as have our peers, and then it has but been too late.

For in our vanity and pride, we have neglected the true essence of education, of work and of purpose. We have forgotten the very simple yet beautiful logic, that governs reason and all human productivity; Do we not study, to learn ? to improve ourselves ? to advance ourselves from our current wretched state ? Do we not work, to create, to change, to produce, to facilitate ? Do we not do something for the simple and wonderful sake of doing it, to complete and improve upon it ? And in the midsts of such reasoning, where does our peers fit in ? Is it not as but mere reference ? And therefore are they not desirable ? Indeed! how blind and blissfully ignorant we have become, to let pride, the greatest sin of them all, to subtlely lead us against our peers, to regard our peers as oppositions, as competition instead of reference. And in this sublime process, reduce ourselves to wretches that heed and abide by the law "survival of the fittest" ?

Thus, let me correct darwin. With humility.

... Evolution, proceeds by the survival of the most compassionate, not the fittest. Fitness, distinction and excellence, is but a byproduct, of the compassionate. The person who wins, is ultimately not the conceited person who labours an extra hour more than his peers, but the person who most feels or is most absorbed for and by his subject, for his work. When a person understands that the purpose of studying is but to learn, the person will most naturally improve. And does it not follow that furthermore with passion and devotion, he will not only learn, but by necessity; most definitely excel and obtain distinction - as mere byproducts - among his peers. Indeed a person must inspect his motives. Does he take up a course, or job, to compete among his peers ? to excel or attain disctinction ? As tempting it might be, and it but tempts us through pride; It is inevitable, that the purpose of studying is to learn, and the purpose of working, is to produce. All else is delusion.

March 16, 2006

Commonwealth Games Opening Ceremony

I bought a bike on monday. Having this new found freedom, i went cycling until my ass was sore. And no, this has nothing to do with homosexuality, and i like young petite girls just incase you were wondering. But again and again, i digress. So on wednesday i cycled to the Melbourne Commonwealth Games (atleast that is what i think MCG stands for) to check out the opening ceremony. They had the most spectacular fireworks display that i have ever seen in my 20 odd years of life. I would like to show you the pictures, but you have probably seen it in newspaper or on tv, and to show you what the media has been brainlessly feeding into your feeble minds once again would be to defeat my own philosophy which is something that endears me. Therefore, unfortunately, i shall not show you pictures of these spectacular fireworks.

However, we still have this rather interesting image of me wearing the official MCG cap, along with some friends of mine. Cheers, that is all.

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Gods Gift to Architecture Students

Caffeine

March 14, 2006

Transcripts

These are a series of transcripts that i have recorded spontanteously as they occured. Tidbits that i found interesting.

[INTERSECTION]
my time at green house.
i arrive on thursday morning , and i checked in to greenhouse. i dont remember much of the people that were there then, but if i was not mistaken , it was a british girl. Afterwards, this american girl came and stayed over next to my bed. Now let me describe the structure of our room. it is divided into two interlinked corridors resulting in a U shaped structure of the room. On each side of the U, would be 4 bunkers. Two double decker beds. So anyways, the american girl brings these 2 friends of hers, whom i would again describe as physically round, and they started chatting up with me , and one of them spilled ginger beer on my twodays old socks. And to my surprise, she starts to take my socks away and brushes of the foaming liquid with her fingers. Perhaps this is because i'am asian this must be an american thing to do, but still shocking nonetheless, my socks were stinky too , well not that stinky eitherway, but its not something even i wouldnt touch without second thought. After that encounter, two german girls and a german guy moved in. Apparently they've been backpacking around the world and they just came from adelaine. The guy also supposedly bought a car for 500 bucks. The amazement of western life never ceases to astound me. Soon after , that , 2 other guys whom i didnt really introduced myself to came , so i didnt know where they were from , i almost didnt even know they were living in the same room as me. As i am typing this now, there are , i think 6 or 7 norweigian girls around me, thankfully, the text on this pc is too small for them to read, otherwise i wonder what they would think. Some of the girls are actually pretty hot and young, i guess this perhaps might be one of the moments in my life where i can actually boast that i slept with 7 girls in the same room. Hmm, they just left. oh that sucks. anyways, i wish i was wearing my contact lenses.

[5 mins later]

they have came back and they are going 'hello' 'hello' with each other repeatedly followed with hysterical laughter. Ah , the wonders of world culture. I guess i'll never fully comprehend it all.

xoxo
12:30AM GMT +11
27 FEB 2006
[END INTERSECTION]

[INTERSECTION]
Gay drama

now again i deplore you for a monent of your time, so that i may share with you the story of my gay housemates. As i was reading the works of vitruvius, the architect on my laptop, i heard the spontaneous groans of pleasure from my gay housemate cum landlord, saying 'Ahn! its so tight!', to my awkward and annoyed surprise. Now with slight further thought and gaining more pieces of data from their conversation, i realized they were talking probably on some sort of under wear. And indeed i have seen this forsaken piece of apparel. it is made with thin fabric, with some natural jungle-ish designs on it , usually in the form of wild parallel stripes resembling claw marks. worn by the mens to shield their inner delicates from the ravages of nature and the oppression of naked eyes, and perhaps by gays to visually enhance the nature of their groin and most necessarily their ego. many times, my gay landlord has come into my room to address me on some trivial matters regarding the household wearing this obscene undergarment, and many times have i strained not to let the curiosity in my eyes wonder to that blasphemous region. and i stand before you truthful in my glory for i have remained unconquered.

now i understand that perhaps you might not know the process which has gotten me into this state. and indeed i have no angst against those whose sexuality overwhelms them. but the knowledge of the fact that two of my housemates are gay, is suddenly overwhelming, I cannot but feel a sense of insecurity and bewilderment at knowing that i am living with two gays. One of which repeatedly fills the house with sounds of Ahns and Ohns. It is painstakingly annoying, and i have a thing against not gays but sissies. I would perhaps describe them as trangendered instead of homosexuality, because homosexuality deals with preference of sex. Whereas transgenderism deals with the idea of sexuality itself. And indeed i have seen many ... sissies in my life. In my communist school days, i thought they were freaks of nature and even worst, freaks of human society. Them with their flamboyant attitudes and arched wrists wich they freely swayed around everywhere during their dramatic conversations. Even worst was when they were overwhelmed with certain emotions, happiness, sadness , eleticism, where they let of squeals of uhns and ohns much to their delight and to the detriment of anyone within audible radial range. And i have found peace with those who are homosexual, i respect that, for apart from their sexual preferences, they remain normal, reasonable people. Whereas those who are transgendered, or more poetically, sissies, i find deplorable. For these people seem to have their sensitivities overgeared, they no longer form part of the natural human spectrum of reasonable and linear thinking personas. They are hypersensitive, and whimsical, emotionally. And to me, any person who is too emotional, has their reasoning and logic functions overwhelmed. for we are all but human. And an emotional person, is rarely a reasonable person. Times like these i cannot help but appreciate nietzches' uberman concept of the super human, to ignore the inferior, and not wallow in pity or sympathy for them and adopt the cool hard shield of apathy, indeed to protect mankind from such freaks. This does not warrant their persecution or execution. but instead encourages their natural extinction through the process of natural selection. Nature does not think in terms of feelings, nature does not pity. And is there anything in nature that does not function correctly; wondrously ?

That is all. I shall go back to reading vitruvius.
11:00PM GMT +11
7 MARCH 2006
[END INTERSECTION]

March 04, 2006

University and the First Week

Today is Saturday, and i went clubbing last night with a girl from korea nad a girl from malaysia. I forgot that for clubbing , people were required to have dresscodes and so i wore a 'save the environment' t-shirt, basketball shoes and 3/4 pants to meet up with the girls. The girls, whom i met in university during the day, were quite interesting.

The first girl was malaysian, but having lived in australia for the better half of her teenage life, i reckon the only thing about her that is malaysian - like me - is the fact that she has a malaysian passport. Now she was quite the spectacle. She was wearing thick glasses in school with long sleeved tees and jeans. This look associates most people as the typical nerdy foreign asian student in a university. Now that night, she miraculously transformed. She had wild curvy hair, without glasses, and wearing a sort of spaghetti straps + tanktop combination dress with really really short translucent filmsy type skirt and she danced in a really sexualy charged way. But more on that later.

So i met this supposedly innocent and goody good shoe girl at night, along with this other korean girl and we were supposed to meet up with another guy but he didnt come. I was quite surprised at the outfit she was wearing, but then was reminded of the fact that we were going to a nightclub afterall, and everyone dresses more or less like that. And instead the odd one out was me with my basketball shoes and ankle pants. So we went off to the korean girls place and she got me more funky shoes, and we went to the nightclub and danced till 5 in the morning afterwhich we went off for some food before i walked home.

On my way home i went into victoria market, just to check it out since i pass by it everyday but it was always closed. Now the later experience i had was surreal, after a whole day at the university, and buying groceries and subsequently dancing the night away till dawn, dead tired and abit tipsy, i was in a large warehouse where there were two long rows of bright fresh red meat, along with carcasses of cows and chickens, interspaced with rows of fish stores. And everyone seemed mindless, cutting up flesh and lining them up precisesly in rows and columns of bright red with the most meticulous care a person can give. And 200m long rows of stores were doing this simultaneously. At one point i imagined how similiar human society was compared with this meat processing facility. We grow up being fed and taken care of in school and university, most of us as mindless as the animals themselves that we feed on, and then we are released into the society, where we work and work to serve 'the society'. Never truly being able to change the state of the environment we are in, nor neither having the ambition or interest to do so.

So eitherways, i went home and got into bed, and went to sleep. I woke up at about 3 and went to shop for bicycles with Jye, a friend who has posted a commentary here on secfive before. After that we just walked around, looking at pidgeons and sitting around. Melbourne is just such a great city in that sense. You can just walk around, relax, talk and enjoy the culture and life of the people, without feeling urge or any particular purpose. I cannot imagine doing this in either Brunei, malaysia or singapore as in brunei, the weather is absolutely horrible, the birds are ugly, and there are no public amenities. There are no chairs or sculptures or shades for you to walk in, sit on or look at, there are no water fountains that offer you water when you are thristy. In singapore there are such amenities, albeit little, but the atmosphere there is fatal. The peoples faces all seem to be engraved with overwhelming purpose, either that or abandon, apathy or lethargy. And these are not faces that encourage you to sit down ,relax and have a good chat with a friend over a meal or drink with pidgeons and statues. A truly fatal atmosphere. As for malaysia, the place just seems dirty, and polluted. The vehicles and people are noisy and loud, and the people too share a sense of fatality as do their singaporean counterparts, albeit not to the same extend. The hot weather, like the parallel effect of temperature on all chemical and thus biological organisms, seems to accelerate the temper, guile and general pace of society in these equatorial countries, and in my perspective, this is detrimental.

Apart from that, school work has been exciting, engaging and fun. My first week of university life has reinforced in me, my passion for the subject of architecture , the pure art of utility. I cannot think of any other subject that i would want to be doing instead of architecture. I enjoy all my lectures, and my tutorials and classes. However i do note that my peers seem to find the topic abit overbearing and tedious. But i am not fit to judge my peers.

The only thing lamentable about Melbourne is that the sun is overpowering, and scalds the naked skin. Apart from that, the weather seems to be fine and dandy. I've also encountered hail last week, much to my pleasant surprise - little blobs of ice that plitter platters on the surfaces of manmade buildings, oblivious to their purpose in nature, but ever consistent. Entities that do what they do but are never able to find beyond themselves, the meaning for their existence in nature. Are they a product of a greater whole ? or a part that constitutes to a greater whole ? They do not know, they just plitter platter when they are summoned. Indeed!, what a blissful existence.