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May i implore you to read slowly, even i cannot keep up with my poor english. It is the curse of any and every man at any and every level - to have knowledge and comprehension much more than your ability to express it.

As I sat in my room listening to Search of Sunrise covered up in sheets in the wee hours of the melbourne predawn reading the final few chapters of Alan Moore's hugo award winning Watchmen, i remarked at this quote in a panel from ozymandias, a protagonist of sorts.

"... thus began my path to conquest... conquest not of men but of the evils that beset them."

... it dawned upon me that no one man could ever have the capacity to do what ozymandias did if he were to succeed - but only in fiction. Not hitler, not alexander whom ozymandias idolized, not franklin with his great constitution, not king arthur, not emperor qin of china. Neither of these great rulers. Not einstein, not newton, not socrates, not nietzsche, not kant, not one philosopher. Neither of these great thinkers. Nothing changed humanity except itself. No one man, organization or event in history.

All these great people did were to reveal a portion of the human condition by which we all subtlely comprehend, identify with and are already originally imbued. The true supremity in all humanity, is the human condition - the universal understanding of pain, lust, greed, of reason and of comprehension and all its subtle shades of feelings and emotions that we as humans are subjected to. Decartes asserted that the act of thinking meant that even if all things were false and deceptive, atleast us, our conciousness existed. that the entity that was 'me' existed. and this was an inalieanable and indestructible basic truth facillitated by the very act of reasoning; inherent to all men. But the fact that this human conciousness decartes so prized - however great or miniscule - was bounded by the limits of the human condition is proof that the human conciousness on its own is not the ultimate entity given that all else was false, for what ultimate entity, unshakable in its foundations, would share congruencies with other conciousness ? Therefore since all human conciousness is congruent in that it all submits to the same human conditions, even decartes would be wrong. The ultimate and inalienable entity that existed in us was not the human conciousness, but the human condition of which the human conciousness is but a spawn. The conciousness is a subset of the condition without which the conciousness is but a child without its biological parents - an impossible being. It is a concious program by which it operates according to biological parameters on which its existence is dependent.

Thus this effectively means that no one conciousness or any scalable group of it can ever ever change the course of humanity be it a single man, a corporate organization, a goverment or a founded religion. That humanity exists as a whole and as a singular unit, with various parts creating the sum on which it exists. Humanity does not succumb to instruction or suggestion, it forges its own one path void of any influence. It will always be an amalgamation and sum representation of men in general. Thus what in reality thrives and moulds itself, is not such organizations or societies, but the human condition, merely polishing itself, with time.

That all the the observations of humanity we see in our societies; hitlers germany, the depression of 1910s, the industrial revolution, the enlightenment, the renaissence, classical antiquity, discovery of fire and the all the blandness and mediocrity of ordinary living and effeminate accomplishments and non-accomplishments throughout history and thus when extended, literally all aspects of human development, history, archievements and being; were but manifestations of humanity and its verily, human conditions. Labour in the form of concious thought and its supposed produce in the form of human archivement is not a genesis and result of or for change and improvement in humanity that we are so inclined to believe (but this is only prompted by our ego and arrogance), but merely the signs and symptoms of humanity by which it manifests and explores itself as a singular entity.

Thus that being said, it is naive for anyone to believe that they have the ability to change the lives of men and the destiny of humanity. Humanity has its own agendas of which we will always be a minute fractional representation of. To accept this implausibility of change and the existence of a larger humanity, one by which all men must resonate to by necessity of being, is the true meaning of humility and the true meaning of existence that men have laboured to archive (and in some cases attained) from confucious to nietzsche.

Thus the human condition is all there ever is to human counciousness, yours and mine. and everyone elses, today and in the past, and for certainty in all future. As human conciousness, we all but live within the framework set up by the human condition. It is the alpha and the omega, one that men has lived with through all ages and races, through black and white skin and all the shades of human skin colour in between, through the discovery of fire and the discovery of the neutron and even more from there. Men can think differently and wear different clothes and have different faces and throughly be unique in all sense of the word, but the human condition makes asses of them(us) all. And thus the human condition is the god supreme we all search but mostly fail to find. It is human destiny, and the reason for human existence. We are concious for these human conditions, and these human conditions allow us to be concious. This is all there is to the father and the son.

That said, i believe i have solved all the questions of lifes meaning and purpose, however contradictory and arrogant i must be to arrive at that; for I am but a mere conciousness, a slave.

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Today i was confronted with an interesting observation of life.

If perhaps on the other end of the universe, or a point in the universe far away enough such that light had to travel through millions of years; and that therein existed a star system with lifeforms which had modern-day human intelligence with societies possibly more advanced. And this star system by virtue of some cosmic phenomena were to implode and self destruct, effectively wiping out all planets and the lifeforms and their relative societies and communities that rivaled our own that inhabited it; sending light radiating in all directions, including one towards our own solar system.

And in another part of space a few million years into the future from this event and a few million lightyears away from it, which i as the omnipotent divinity of my imagination and this scenario would set - as the present in our terms; We imagine a university student perhaps camping with his mates on a field trip, in the desert on a cold cloudless night. Out of curiousity, this student stares up into the starry sky up above, and sees a small flash of light, no larger than a speck of grime and no longer than a heartbeat. A twinkering of the stars.

And with that i shall end my philosophical scenario and start with its philosophical counterpart.

Would he be able to comprehend the course of events ? and even if he was told everything i have told you in the previous paragraphs, would he be able to take in fully with his conciousness this entire destruction of a solar system that was similiar to the very one he is standing on and living in and the resultant death of an entire plethora of species of lifeforms of varying intelligence, of millions of years of evolution and the willpower expended by said lifeforms to terraform their planets and systems. Millenias of strife, war, suffering, peace and progress that resembled our own ? All the questions and conciousness of life and the universe built ontop of each other resulting in permeating layers cyclic and ad infinitum of understanding, knowledge and will. The answer is he would not. For even with his vast and limitless conciousness and intelligence (as human) that we have so extolled in our civilizations, simply for the fact that he is 1 human and 2 a self-concious being, he can never grasp the true significance and sheer divinity of this alien civilization and its existential cycle. Neither can I and especially not you, my dear average reader.

And all this as a speck of light, again, no larger than a speck of grime and no longer than a heartbeat.

The destruction not of physical bodies or materials, not of the large ziggurats these lifeforms might have built , but the destruction and end of conciousness and imagination, a seemingly voidless entity within ourselves which when compared, is still insubstantial, to a collective greater civilization and its cummulative conciousness a few million years ago and a few million lightyears away.

And how many people would listen to this and just live on ? How many of us, perhaps including myself (idavertently, my (human) memory fails on occasion) will continue being oblivious to the ways of the world and of a greater divinity than our own. How many people would continue living their lives in their fucked up societies and complain about their fucked up lives and muse and work towards obtaining the petty goals they have set up for themselves and worst maybe others for them. And is it not shocking how much more relevence this has when we relate it with our lives and in the context of our societies which; in a few milliseconds in the extended future, in the lives of our progeny, would all end only to repeat itself. Consume and distill it all. and Then Behold, This is the sheer ignorance and pettiness the human condition has for its own existence and the existence of all life and being. I am repulsed by it, yet for such insignificant objectives of a beings life (when compared to the cycle of worlds) and the defacto knowledge of the plausibility of this chain of events, motivated by pure selfishness, I have to live on.

As do you.

And in the end of said observation, i cannot help but feel that perhaps all life and conciousness - however profound - will always only amount to so little in our lives.

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Mmmm, i guess an architecture students life really doesnt amount to much. We're too philosophical for our own good and we muse about life too much instead of actually living and enjoying it. Hopeless romantics. Perhaps that is the price to pay for clairvoyancy. I'd like to talk about the semester and everything but it just occurs to me that education isnt perhaps as interesting a topic as it rightfully should be. Torn between the rifts of the reason and feeling, we live in an unreasonable world filled with unreasonable things. All life and humanity can perhaps only amount to so little.

I must say this month has been particularly unfortunate for me. I've lost alot of things. My keys, my ipod and perhaps some friends who are going back or dropping out. And to replace them, we are paired with senior students in other new lower pool design studios, while it is exciting to meet these new people, i deplore about how easily people are replaced in our lives by simple necessity. Fate, also alternatively spelled as god (according to your relative denominations) indeed has little sympathy for human emotions (as it shuffles it about with reckless abandon) and this brings me to marvel at the conception of human empathy. If people place so much importance on it then why does it only amount to so little in our own lives on both an individualistic and a collectivistic level.

Let me tell you why; humans are selfish and arrogant thats why.

We've grown with consumerism to choose people and friends like the way we choose our clothes and accessories. We choose to live in higher human density areas not to enjoy the company of other men, but to gain greater access to a wider range of goods and services. When we compare of towns and metropolitan cities, the image that comes up is the glitz and modernity that the cities provide instead of human company and indeed perhaps humanity is reduced to only what we see on the various medias, and our own choice of personal friends. People are expendable and dispensable. Thus all humanity only amounts to so little.

God or fate, if he has the ability to think and ponder the way we do, is cruel to blow conciousness that is denotative of the human spirit into the lifeless vessels that we truly are

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Perhaps this really is purgatory;

Mindless men and women working about their lives trying to find meaning and purpose in their lives while always being subjected to the fate that they they will never understand the purposes of life beyond their flesh and conciousness, like rain drops plitter plattering on the bottomless ocean surface and voiceless fishes in the sea never knowing a different world above, we are all oblivious to our roles in life, pawns to a higher divinity. We try to find meaning to it all and yet the reality is that there really is no meaning or purpose to human conciousness as it relates to our being.

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