I've found myself guiltily reading this guy Kenny Sia's blog (kennysia.com), and i stumbled upon this bit;
Man all i gotta say is that this guy has some seriously whacked up nipples. they almost look like they are staring at you sinisterly. This stuff is obscene.
[insert cue; dramatic chipmunk]
D :
Kenny Sia, i recommend you to go for a hair removal treatment or buy yourself some Veet.
... translit: '(to create) a wonderful world '
"If it is not ours, we shall appropriate it"
-Gilbert Durandal
I was watching heroes on channel 7. Heres a screen caption i thought was interesting.
Every journey begins with amusement as we shed off the chains that bind us to our daily grind and embark on a new voyage to something that we believe gives us more meaning in life. We put ourselves in the hands of uncertainty; gambling our security for the the prospect of greater gains. The instincts - survival and self perserverence - dominates our psyche. It gives us an adrenaline high and it compels us to do more and to do them well, for why not ? our very livelihood is at stake. Our lives are suddenly and overhwhelmingly filled with purpose. A brilliant life of sparks. But as we get things settled, and normalancy returns, we begin to see monotony. We begin to observe mediocrity - the numbing permeating hum of all that is ordinary and unassuming. Our overwhelming purpose becomes replaced with but only one purpose - that is to excel in work and to float ourselves among our peers, to archieve distinction, for we do not want to fall into the state of mediocrity that we believe dictates the lives of our peers. Indeed, we yearn to be special, we yearn to be unique, to have an identity of sorts and to gain recognition above others for what we do. And thus comes the mindset where our lives begin to slowly slip into depression, we no longer remain human, but instead are turned into machines. Slaves, of our own ideas and thoughts.
Yet ironically and irrevocably, we remain the same petty humans that we are - as much as we yearn for perfection. And in this subtle process, we but turn ourselves into the mediocrity we so despise. For do not all rationally thinking human seek the same ideal ? Develop the same thoughts ?
Thus, mediocrity shows its true self, like a statue that slays from behind in the dark shadows at night, it too strikes men with utmost uncertainty. Mediocrity reveals its true form when we realize that we, like the petty fools that we are, have but been doing seeking the same false ideals as have our peers, and then it has but been too late.
For in our vanity and pride, we have neglected the true essence of education, of work and of purpose. We have forgotten the very simple yet beautiful logic, that governs reason and all human productivity; Do we not study, to learn ? to improve ourselves ? to advance ourselves from our current wretched state ? Do we not work, to create, to change, to produce, to facilitate ? Do we not do something for the simple and wonderful sake of doing it, to complete and improve upon it ? And in the midsts of such reasoning, where does our peers fit in ? Is it not as but mere reference ? And therefore are they not desirable ? Indeed! how blind and blissfully ignorant we have become, to let pride, the greatest sin of them all, to subtlely lead us against our peers, to regard our peers as oppositions, as competition instead of reference. And in this sublime process, reduce ourselves to wretches that heed and abide by the law "survival of the fittest" ?
Thus, let me correct darwin. With humility.
... Evolution, proceeds by the survival of the most compassionate, not the fittest. Fitness, distinction and excellence, is but a byproduct, of the compassionate. The person who wins, is ultimately not the conceited person who labours an extra hour more than his peers, but the person who most feels or is most absorbed for and by his subject, for his work. When a person understands that the purpose of studying is but to learn, the person will most naturally improve. And does it not follow that furthermore with passion and devotion, he will not only learn, but by necessity; most definitely excel and obtain distinction - as mere byproducts - among his peers. Indeed a person must inspect his motives. Does he take up a course, or job, to compete among his peers ? to excel or attain disctinction ? As tempting it might be, and it but tempts us through pride; It is inevitable, that the purpose of studying is to learn, and the purpose of working, is to produce. All else is delusion.
The average teenager nowadays is almost always angsty and angry at the world, feeling impotent at the perceived faults and failings of society and yet feeling doubly gay about themselves for the fact that they have the capacity to think that way. That perhaps one day when they grow up into adults, they will exert enough impact and influence on society to actually change it.
It seems to me that everyone thinks somehow, in some sense, one way or the other , they are superior to their average fellow men. That their views and opinions seemingly hold more weight that their compatriots, and that somehow they are more human than the next guy and so we judge, we judge everyone we meet, everything we see. We find obvious faults with almost everything not realizing when instead the fault inherently lies in the fact that we are all but only humans and that by definition we are fundamentally flawed and imbued with the vices of greed, sloth, wrath, pride, lust, envy and gluttony. My dear readers, that is the crux of the problem with society and in humans in general - we are not perfect, we are only human. Imperfection exists not due to the lack of design or implementation in society but due to the inherent human condition. Dont blame the people who generalize, dont blame the rascists, dont blame the politicians, blame the human condition.
How convenient is the observer, he who sits on his glass throne and critiques everyone else, yet does nothing to avail it. His arrogance grow, as does his isolation and ultimately he turns narcissist and feels omnipotent. For who else judges mankind. Yet they know not the scores and scores of people who have walked through the same path, and that they ultimately belong to the largest common denominator in the sense that they form the core group of what it means to be human. In an ironic sense, the people who think they are special, or superior are just simply the mediocre people that make up human society. They walk a coerced path, they actively blame but passively accept - they conform to peer pressure, to suggestion and to the authorities and are satisfied with merely placing blame and believing in the ideals that one day, somehow, someway, as long as they believe hard enough , reality will bend their way.
Perhaps this is the new religion of the 21st century. I dont know what people would like to call it but perhaps it should be called delusion. People nowadays have much less free will and thought than say the people in the 18th or 19th century. Sure we are more educated, sure we have cars and planes to bring us about and mobile phones to communicate but do we actually innovate more in terms of thought and philosophy ? do we think about all the other things in life and find a way to live them out - to live out our own lives ? absolutely not. What we do today, is follow what is conventionally accepted. If the scientist in country X says this stuff is good for you, you eat it. Everyone goes to school and learn the same stuff that everyone else is learning. There is no expectation by the people in position for you to actually innovate, to talk back and to discuss what you've learned. Instead rather it is usually discouraged, the teachers of our teenagers mostly just wish that their students accept whatever ideas that are being taught and reproduce it at the exam. Nobody truly gives a damn about religion, they have no faith. We worship objectivism. And life falls into a mere mechanical process. We grow up, take our exams like everyone else, perhaps go to university and are finally supplied to the body called economy as fresh meat to turn the cogwheels of our modern society. Peace has given us complacency, and people have become nothing more but intelligent farm animals. We've lost our individuality, in its stead , the voice of human society and the one conciousness of the system speaks to us. It beckons us to accept, beckons us to produce, beckons us to consume. And amazingly, its these nitwit bystanders who stand passively alongside the course of developing human history, finding fault and critiqueing anything and everything they find, yet never putting in enough effort to change the status quo - that fuel the stagnant society they so wish to change.
Society needs change, and its supply of change comes from its influx of healthy young adults with their spontaineity, radicalism, extremism and fresh new ideas which today are increasingly being stifled and streamlined by the secular and selfish institutions that aim to mass produce well manered, pro-society and obedient straight A students, that are easily incorporated into society. Petty people who practice double standards. Practicing their individuality in the mere form of thought. Satisfied as long as their needs are met and through superficilities like preferences in music, clothing and food. What ever happened to the passion, the vigor that people had for their various causes and believes.
No one truly fights for anything anymore. We all just follow, and accept, not the leaders but the system. Perhaps we are all just mere cells that make up the one organ called the human society. We are in effect a living entity. Like the cells in our bodies, we have become cells in society. Functionally believing our own state of autonomy and uniqueness while actually faciliating what is actually the human society. One singular body made from inter-dependant units which believe they have individuality where in reality they do not. Is this evolution ? forging organisms together to produce a whole greater than its sum. Or is it a devolution of the human individual - its reduction to a mere machine.
[EDITED - to correct obvious vocabulary and grammatical mistakes]
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Give me a sec while i put on my earbuds.
*adjusts & adjusts* alright its smooth
Damn, low batt.
*hooks it up to the pc, yadda yadda yadda*
*puts on forever today by dj tiesto*
alright
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These few days have been wacky, as you can obviously imply from the title of this entry. Strangely i cannot recall much without the sheer use of willpower. So let me think realllly hard.
Lets start off with Dec 31, New Years Eve. I was at marco's place and he has a huge place. Apparently he speaks either spanish or portugese and he has these really great friends, and makes really great alcoholic fruit punches. Thats all i can remember though.
Between 1st and 7th of Jan, i've been out with random people, mostly playing cs and dota at a cybercafe and then hanging out for snacks at the local hawker stores. Somewhere between then, i also went to labi and i met a few folks, most of which were scuba divers on our second trip to labi. On our second trip to labi, we went to another place instead, and apparently this was the _one waterfall_ that everyone was talking about. Here was a beautiful waterfall and directly in the path of the water falling, there exists ropes for people to climb up the waterfall, in the waterfall. To get up a waterfall with water falling hard on you is a rather interesting experience. You'd think that it would be difficult with all that gravity and water acting on you, but that wouldnt be the case. Rather the water hits you so hard and loud on your head and face, that you can hardly see or hear anything but water. It also messes with your sense of direction so half of the time people just slip and fall back into the water. 3 of us, out of 7 or 8, managed to climb up this liquid monstrosity, and we explored the rapids up till a sharp corner.
And this was probably among one of the most beautiful and amazing nature experiences i've had in my life. Up the rapids, the water was flowing on smooth bed rock filled with pot holes, it broke off occasionally to form two vertically seperated but converging currents - each on two alternating levels. I'am not too sure if you can imagine that, but its really something really astonishing. Further up on the rapids, there were these natural seats carved perhaps by time and rocks into human fitting bedrock where you could actually sit in it and have currents pulsating on your back for the ultimate spa/jacuzzi experience. I swear, one session in these nature spas would restore you by atleast 10 years back to when you feel like you just got your first erection or turn on. And just when you think you heard it all, theres the monkeys.
Not only do they have natural jacuzzis up there, there were also monkeys who served you alcohol. Once you made yourself comfy on these bedrocks, half a dozen monkeys would jump down with pen and paper to take your cocktail order and serve you anything you fancy. We all ordered a few coronas and san miguels and just chilled out at the ultimate nature chillout lounge.
Nah i was fucking joking about the monkeys.
After the monkeying session and other random stuff that i'am feeling lazy to write about, we went back. Luckily this time there were no leeches. Thank the reinvented god.
The next thing that comes into my mind was the 7, 8 and 9th of January. Thats sunday, monday and tuesday. We had a huge party at adams place, and i got really high on redbull and vodka. The strangest thing ever was that when i puked, there were leaves in my puke. These were full leaves about 2 cm in length, and they looked like oxidized tea leaves. I didnt really know what the hell they were but i sure was surprised that theres leaves in my stomach. Perhaps they were something else and perhaps i was high. I did eat satay before i puke though but i swear to god, they had the exact look, shape and consistency as tea leaves. Either the satay was cooked with some sort of herbal leaves or i was actually eating grass. But oh well, i'am still alive so thats a great thing.
Before my great puking session there was also a snake wine drinking session. More specifically cobra snake wine from Vietnam that our hosts obtained from a certain minister in Vietnam.
Now let me describe this intriguing object.
In a very general sense, it is a typical ~600ml whisky bottle, with the typical double arched slender shape at the sides and a flat bottom, the wine bottle has a larger width then its height , but this width slowly decreases and tapers off to form the neck and the cap section of the bottle. The bottle can be described as fat and flat. What was inside it was a baby or adolescent cobra, coiled at its ends which rested at the bottom of the bottle, with its head rising spectacularly into the typical cobra agitated stance - with its head spread horizontally out and its jaw opened slightly to reveal a forked tongue. Surrounding this spectacle was ginseng roots and what was probably rice wine. The hosts saw our iminent fascination with this and brought us shot glasses. I had 2 shots of this rather flavourful wine, on which the second shot i nearly puked. The wine didnt taste that bad, tequila and vodka straight up is much much more worst, but the psychological image of the snake and everything really does make the typical non exotic wine drinker feel like shit.
[EDIT - i found a picture of this online, dont you just love the internet]
After the snake debacle, we chilled out and listened to assorted folks playing the guitar and singing. We had a few slighly morals and philosophy debate. This (rather cute) british girl believed that it was the innate function of every person to be materialistic and want more, and that those people who are not inherently materialistic are ignorant. I argued that people have a choice to be materialistic or not, and that people are merely forced to conform by peer pressure from branding and the media to have the idealistic notion that more stuff is better. That the happiest people, are indeed people from the undeveloped nations (Statiscally, happiest people are the Filipinos), and whether relevant or not, i would gladly choose to be happy than to have more. Though between being happy and knowing more, I would choose the latter. Cause i do agree with her that happiness does require abit of ignorance about human affairs and the human condition.
Apart from that, I also told them that humans have the largest dicks among all primates, much to their amusement. Perhaps this is no small feat if the word primate conjures up images of chimps and bonobos in your mind, but think of the gorilla, usually 2 to 3 times the average human in size and weight, yet only having 4 cm of erected wang for sex. This is unrelated but, personally i think that sex is an integral part to human evolution, and that evolution favours those who give better sex to their partners.
Apart from that, we jumped into the pool at the party which was awesome. After that, we just socialized and talked alot. Roger took lots of pictures which i will probably be posting in another seperate entry. At about 5am, we went to serasa beach to look at the stars which were awesome. It was a perfectly clear sky, visibility was awesome and you could see a whole 360 degrees worth of stars. Later, we went to Shahbandar, which was a recreation park, and hiked up a hill or two to look at the sunrise, and that was awesome too. Stars and sunrise - very nice combination. After that, we had some indian and malay food and went home.
I remember i had to do this wacky christian praise music video-audio editing for one of our customers. With all due respect to religion, this was 5 mins of few hundreds of people singing and coordinating hand movements along the lines of world peace, love and breaking the chains of mistrust and selfishness. To see a few hundred people with their faces so full of awe and abandon to me is a very sad image. I find it very hard not to correlate such an image with that of nazi soldiers, maoist-styled communism (everyone with their little red book) or george orwell's 1984. Also the sheer idealism these people have with the one-sided ideals of hope, love and peace borders on the obsessive and fanatical.
I slept after i finished my work, and we went to the border when i woke up. This was the 10th. We had awesome chicken wings, stingray and fish, and then after that we went home and i slept early.
Then today or atleast, 3 hours ago, which was the 11th. We .. hmm lets not talk about today :)
That much be such a spoiler. But oh well, shit happens.
Life is fun. Someones gotta enjoy it, why not you.
Man what is wrong with these people.
One moment they are singing and asking the world 'Where is the love', next moment its all humps and lumps, breasts and Dolce and Gabgana, milk and cocoa puffs ?
Now before you jump to conclusions, I'am cool with either songs. I think My Humps is nice and i like the beats, the video and i'am alright with the sexually charged lyrics and dance movements. Likewise i'am cool with ''Where is the Love'', the music is good, lyrics are fine, It feels so like mother theresa but thats alright. What irks me the most is the dichotomy, the two sided faced quality of these two songs.
For the sake of comparison, here are some lyrics i've extracted from both songs.
-->WitL
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all
-->versus MH
Get you love drunk off my hump.
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,
(yeap gravitate to the love of thy humps thyy humps thy humps..)
WitL
Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)
-->The love ? i think its here :
Dolce & Gabbana,
Fendi and NaDonna
Karan, they be sharin’
All their money got me wearin' fly
But I ain’t askin,
They say they love my ass ‘n,
(yeap love is in the ass and dolce and gabbana)
WitL
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
vs MyHumps
What u gon’ do with all that ass?
All that ass inside them jeans?
I’m a make, make, make, make you scream
Make u scream, make you scream.
(can you hear the children crying :P ?
can you practice what you preach ?)
WitL
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Myhumps:
They say I’m really sexy,
The boys they wanna sex me.
They always standing next to me,
Always dancing next to me,
Tryin’ a feel my hump, hump.
(accompanied by 'negatve imagies' and 'wrong information by the media'
of course we all know that for blackeyedpeas its all about 'makin money')
~and~
What you gon’ do wit all that breast?
All that breast inside that shirt?
(i dont have breasts, the mammary types, but you sure arent doing a good job
with yours to the children watching ur video. What would Father say)
WitL
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
MYHUMPS!~
I mix your milk wit my cocoa puff,
Milky, milky cocoa,
Mix your milk with my cocoa puff, milky, milky riiiiiiight.
(thats what happened to your values of humanity)
P/S : According to slang city mixing cocoa puffs and milk means to have sex.
Yeah thats that. Whew, what a buttload of backstabbing bullshit.
Marilyn Manson and Korn probably better credibility than they do. I mean you dont hear Marilyn Manson singing about Father or human values or crying children and asking the world where is the love. And i'am perfectly alright with all these rock and punk music, I've got Marilyn Manson, Korn's Greatest Hits and System of a Down's latest albums on my iPod along with Beethoven and Pacabel and Yo-Yo Ma's Classical Cello pieces along with some smooth Japanese love ballads with them angelic voices and i appreciate all these genres and artistes for they express a part of humanity. But for some band to act so self righteous and upright and bemoan to the world the state of it, then suddenly release something like My Humps, that to me, is simply absurd.